People need to verbalize feelings in order to cope with stress. Talking with a trusted friend, writing on a journal, painting a picture, anything as long as it is cathartic, anything as long as it will purge out the negative emotions in you.
For most of the past week, I have found myself crying and craving for chocolate. Because work had been stressful. Unfortunately, when I got home, I had no one to talk to. This plus the nursing responsibilities made me want to quit. Maybe I’m still in the adjustment period, thus my mentality.
I’m still figuring out how to handle the tasks assigned to me. I’m still trying to manage my time. I’m still working my way to forming meaningful relationships with workmates. I think it is too much for my heart to handle- being outside my comfort zone with nothing familiar I could hold on to. I think God just threw me in a lion’s den.
A daunting task it is. A task ready to break me. And I think I am getting broken already. But I know God has a great purpose for all of these and I can see His hand despite my tears. My circumstance is pulling me closer to Him. In my weakness, He is my strength. 2 Corinthians 12: 9 is a great reminder: And He said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee; for My strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
Friend, if you are going under a lot of stress, verbalize your feelings to God. He wants to listen to you and wants to lessen the weight you are carrying, so give Him the chance. The road ahead may seem too dark for you to follow, but God led you there for a purpose. Trust Him that He knows what He is doing and trust Him that He will deliver you whole. Yes, you may not emerge unscathed, but you will definitely emerge a better person, a person molded by time and pressure for God’s glory. He did not bring you to the waters to drown you; He brought you there to cleanse you. Applying this to my current situation, God is taking people away from me so I can have only Him. He is emptying me so I could be filled by Him. Let us not resist; instead, let us yield to God. Let’s do this together, friend!
Scholars believe that the word sex is related to the Latin word secare, which means “to sever, to amputate, or to disconnect from the whole”.
Our sexuality, then, has two dimensions. First, our sexuality is our awareness of how profoundly we’re severed and cut off and disconnected. Second, our sexuality is all of the ways we go about trying to reconnect.
Rob Bell, Sex|God: Exploring The Endless Connections Between Sexuality and Spirituality
Today I took a qualifying exam for the job I wanted. People kept telling me “Good luck”. Why rely on luck when you can rely on God? God is greater than luck. Sad this case may be, this is a good call for Christians- those who profess the Jesus Christ is their Lord and Savior, those who depend upon God- to share while we still have time. People need to know the Gospel, need to know the truth. That God is not a distant God. He listens to His people and answers their call (Jeremiah 29:12 Then shall ye call upon me and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you.). We can depend on this God! This God wants a relationship with each and every one of us on a very personal, intimate level. This was how things were supposed to be- man and God communicating with each other directly. That is, until sin entered the world. And because of sin, our disobedience from our Maker, our God, the communication was severed, man was punished with death (Romans 5:12 Wherefore as by one man, sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned.). Death in the spiritual sense. Death which means and eternal separation from God. Death which means eternal suffering. But because God so loved the world, so loved the people He made despite their disobedience, He sent His only Son, Jesus Christ, to pay the debt which man owed. Jesus died on the cross for your sins, for my sins, for everyone’s sin. He has paid the price man cannot pay. So the question is, would you accept Jesus’ payment for your behalf? Would you acknowledge Jesus as you own personal Savior? (John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.)
Because this God hears the people He made, cares for the people He made. You can depend on this God.
Is it because of the raging hormones? The cold weather? The influence of the world? Too often we deceive ourselves into justifying the wrong. Just because everybody does it doesn’t mean it is already right. What God has said is wrong remains wrong, despite everyone doing it and making it seem right. What is wrong in the eyes of God remains as it is even if humans make it right in their eyes.
The fact remains; we give ourselves away. Our bodies, most especially. Nothing is wrong with that, only when done at the proper place and time with the proper person, and most of all, God’s permission. Marriage is the safest place to be intimate- physically and emotionally. This is when both persons are secure. This is when God allows us to give ourselves away.
Yet the sanctity of marriage has been marred by the world. We do things only married couples should enjoy. We place ourselves at risk of getting hurt, being enslaved by sin, and being judged by God. Premarital sex is a big NO NO. And while Christians do not practice it, still we commit a crime. To a lesser extent. In the form of physical intimacy. Yes, physical intimacy is [robbing God] giving ourselves away. Without God’s permission. The hugs and the kisses and touches..they seem innocent at first. But it is still robbing God of His authority over our body. When we develop physical intimacy too naively, when we do it too frequently, we are giving authority to another person to do whatever they want with our body. Our body which, in the first place, does not belong to us. (1 Cor 6:19 What? Know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? v.20 For ye are bought with a price; therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God’s.)
I’m not saying this because I’m righteous. I’m not saying this because I’m pure. I’m saying this because this is my struggle, too. How can I avoid something I am fond of? How can I consider a sin that which I love doing?
Skinship. Hugs and kisses. Physical intimacy.
It is my weakness, too. I am a sinner, much like everyone else. And while I am writing that it is bad, that it is to be avoided, to be kept to a minimum, I find it difficult to actually practice what I preach. At the back or front of my mind, I am thinking of cuddling him and holding his hand while we talk and kissing him. To be honest, marriage excites me because of the privilege of sex.. But I’m not only after the sex part, I’m excited for living every day with him. And yeah, lots of physical intimacy.
This is my heart. It’s corrupted, I know. I won’t deny it. And I need God’s grace to help me fight this.
You ask me what love is. I tell you it is the oxygen that circulates in your blood. It is the microscopic function of your cells. Or the touch of sunlight on your cheeks. The dew drops on a tiny leaf. It is a cool breeze in the heat of summer night. It is the warm blanket during winter. And the comforts of a house during a storm. It is a call from a long unheard friend. The furry warmth and sloppy kiss of a pet dog. And the warm greeting from a nurse. A reassuring smile from the physician. A baby’s first time to say “Mama, Dada”. It is your mom making you breakfast. The son studying well. A wife washing the clothes. A father fixing the pipes. It is your sister helping you out with homework. It is the encouragement from peers when you think you can’t do it. It is you r favorite song to cheer you up on a lonely day. It is the one thing you badly needed, arriving at the time you needed it most.
Love is a Father, giving up His only Son, to die for sin that is never His. Love is the Son, subjecting Himself to the Father, even if it meant dying. You ask me what love is. I tell you, love is the source of life that keeps you alive. Love is from God. Love is God.
Too many times we take the little things forgranted and make ourselves believe we are unloved. Look around you and observe well enough. You are dearly beloved.